Change gonna come

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQU4torUz-Q

I was born by the river in a little tent
Oh and just like the river I been a runnin' ever since
It's been a long, a long time coming but I know
A change gon' come oh yes it will
It's been too hard living but I'm afraid to die
Cuz I don't know what's up there beyond the sky
It's been a long, a long time coming but I know
A change gon' come oh yes it will

I go to the movie, and I go downtown
Somebody keep tellin me "don't hang around"
It's been a long, a long time coming, but i know
A change gon' come oh yes it will

Then I go to my brother
And I say "brother, help me please"
But he winds up knocking me
Back down on my knees
There been times that I thought I wouldn't last for long
Now think I'm able to carry on
It's been a long, along time coming but I know
A change gon' come, oh yes it will

I hope this means as much to you as it does me.

A little more thankfulness and Venting before the New Year so I can truly start 2011 Positive and burden free.

Life is good. Things could be better in areas but I am working on that… I need more light in my life than dark. This last year Ryan and I have been making more time for friends that don’t just call us friend or tell us were friends but they actually TREAT us as friends… sometimes more than that, they treat us like family.  In the last 10 years I have had a lot of friends come and go. I have wondered who was here for a lifetime and I cant answer for all of them (meaning I know some are here to stay and some not) but this special couple brings so much to my life I couldn't see it without them . No matter what’s going on in life we seem to have a lot of the same understandings, if you don’t make time for friendship your life truly wont seem as full. I mean TRUE friendship, not this fake stuff that’s been going on. It’s just easy with them, I like my thoughts and ideas to be challenged but its nice to be surrounded by like-minded people when it comes to religion, politics, love, and life. It just brings so much Peace. Family is important as well but at some point in my life I knew my friends were part of my family and so I consider the two the same. Sometimes I call them Fri-mily ;).  Life is just too short to constantly be fighting, or be lonely, or be depressed…. I really want to continue to build these relationships in my life that I know will make me a better person and work on some others that I know should and can be stronger and really not worry about the people who call me their friends but truly were acquaintances. Friendship is a two way street honesty, love, and respect is what makes you my friend. I love you Harrah's :)

I apologize for all the cliches ;)

There’s been a lot of drama in my life it seems this last year, before it seemed like the group I surrounded myself with was just a little less dramatic, who knows. Drama doesn’t make a persona bad person it just makes it hard to be around a dramatic person a lot. Most of us have our own lives and problems and we deal with them differently. Dramatic people seem a little more …louder about it? Anyways, Some of my friends aged 20 years in 2 years, which is perfectly fine as long as their happy I’m not going to rain on their parade, but it doesn’t mean I don’t miss them when they miss an fun event going on and our inside jokes making us laugh until why cry is easy to go unrecognized. I wonder if peopel realize the way I care about them.  Everyone said “when you get married all your friends will slowly go away” Well so far they haven’t gone away they just stay  away a little more than I would like (im a selfish friend ;)) but their not gone. I can be selfish and I wish in a perfect world I could have all my friends around me all the time when were out playing around but in reality its understandably impossible. So this new year I am really going to accept the changes. I am also going to have to separate myself from the “louder” people. They have every right to live their life’s how they want but if it continues to make me unhappy I have to get away and find my happy place.

This blog entry is kind of all over the place ;)

A New Year

A little information on my Blog:  I need something in my life that is simple. I am an emotional person who has been known to take things more personally than I should. I want a place where I don't have to question if my message I am sending out is passive aggressive or just me whining and complaining ( You can go to my facebook for that ;)). I wanted a place to express my simple loves... music, movies, art, dance, clothes, people, animals, and photography. It Will officially start January 1, 2011. I have always wanted to make a journal of what I outfit's I wear for 365 days in a row. I want to share what song inspired me that day, a picture that took my breath away, a movie that moved me, and share about a people I love. This blog will be a positive energy to send out into the universe for once, maybe I can make up for all that bad energy I put out there.

Love is all, Love is new, Love is all, Love is you
xoxo
B