A little more thankfulness and Venting before the New Year so I can truly start 2011 Positive and burden free.

Life is good. Things could be better in areas but I am working on that… I need more light in my life than dark. This last year Ryan and I have been making more time for friends that don’t just call us friend or tell us were friends but they actually TREAT us as friends… sometimes more than that, they treat us like family.  In the last 10 years I have had a lot of friends come and go. I have wondered who was here for a lifetime and I cant answer for all of them (meaning I know some are here to stay and some not) but this special couple brings so much to my life I couldn't see it without them . No matter what’s going on in life we seem to have a lot of the same understandings, if you don’t make time for friendship your life truly wont seem as full. I mean TRUE friendship, not this fake stuff that’s been going on. It’s just easy with them, I like my thoughts and ideas to be challenged but its nice to be surrounded by like-minded people when it comes to religion, politics, love, and life. It just brings so much Peace. Family is important as well but at some point in my life I knew my friends were part of my family and so I consider the two the same. Sometimes I call them Fri-mily ;).  Life is just too short to constantly be fighting, or be lonely, or be depressed…. I really want to continue to build these relationships in my life that I know will make me a better person and work on some others that I know should and can be stronger and really not worry about the people who call me their friends but truly were acquaintances. Friendship is a two way street honesty, love, and respect is what makes you my friend. I love you Harrah's :)

I apologize for all the cliches ;)

There’s been a lot of drama in my life it seems this last year, before it seemed like the group I surrounded myself with was just a little less dramatic, who knows. Drama doesn’t make a persona bad person it just makes it hard to be around a dramatic person a lot. Most of us have our own lives and problems and we deal with them differently. Dramatic people seem a little more …louder about it? Anyways, Some of my friends aged 20 years in 2 years, which is perfectly fine as long as their happy I’m not going to rain on their parade, but it doesn’t mean I don’t miss them when they miss an fun event going on and our inside jokes making us laugh until why cry is easy to go unrecognized. I wonder if peopel realize the way I care about them.  Everyone said “when you get married all your friends will slowly go away” Well so far they haven’t gone away they just stay  away a little more than I would like (im a selfish friend ;)) but their not gone. I can be selfish and I wish in a perfect world I could have all my friends around me all the time when were out playing around but in reality its understandably impossible. So this new year I am really going to accept the changes. I am also going to have to separate myself from the “louder” people. They have every right to live their life’s how they want but if it continues to make me unhappy I have to get away and find my happy place.

This blog entry is kind of all over the place ;)